the geography of childhood
I bought this book in high school — the national park where I bought it was only a national monument then, and I remember thinking I had to loudly justify my purchase to my dad, whom I worried would assume I wanted children (a horror to sixteen year-old me). But I had no idea the book was almost as old as I am. Now, pregnant, I am finally bothering to read the whole thing, and its datedness is at times without issue and at times breathlessly naive. (The idea that rap music (?!) and MTV is the greatest impediment to inculcating in one’s offspring an enjoyment of the natural world, for example? Oh you sweet, summer-of-1994 child.)
Maybe the most dated sections are on gender. They try to be broader in scope than they otherwise would have been — helped largely, we are told in the preface, by the wives of the [white, male, and at least aware of where this places their voices — a novelty in 1994 nature essays] writers. But their well-intentioned devotion to looking at how things are different for “boys and girls” just cements their adherence to a gender binary that now, I would hope, writers pursuing similar paths are less glued to.
Still, the startling age of the text means that the children the writers are then watching just come to learn about the natural world are now almost my age. Which means, after a particularly moving passage where one of the authors confesses to realizing that his son is going to have a much easier path in the world than his daughter “whether I understand it or not” (WHAT IS SO DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND, SIR?), wherein he worries about what seems her inevitable retreat from the natural world at that age where, assured child psychologists writing in the late 80s and early 90s, girls turn away from the outside and toward each other and contained, social relationships for their self-worth. The author wished his daughter would be able to turn to the natural world for her self-worth, as he assumed his son would always be able to. Would always be encouraged to, as a man.
So, well, as a fellow millennial, the daughter in question should be able to be found on the internet, right? And she was. Her Instagram (thanks to her unique name) was easy to find, and I didn’t even feel stalkery about it since it was a deliberate public one, designed to be so as part of her job. Her job as a the executive director of a green energy foundation. All of her pictures show mountains, canyons, hot springs, and dogs ranging over rugged terrain. All of her pictures show her living exactly the kind of life, almost 30 years ago now, her father worried would be denied her.
It’s…well, it’s easy to describe the kind of peace that gives me, a pregnant lady chugging from a national park centennial water bottle under a canopy of trees that may or may not turn to rain any second. It’s categorically easy. The kind of writing this girl’s dad did is the kind of writing I consumed almost exclusively, at least in terms of nonfiction, as a teenager. He’s right, the space he was writing in at the time was almost entirely dominated by “Anglo-Americans, usually well-educated urban males between the ages of twenty and forty, seeking recreational pleasures in remote and sometimes formidable wilderness areas.” The women who have attempted to broaden that field since then haven’t done much for me*, perhaps more because of their seeming need to assert their equal authority on the subject by name-dropping powerful public and political figures instead of waxing lyrical (and angry!) in the way people like Edward Abbey did. I am much less interested in who you know than in how you tell me what you know.
But it’s a comfort to see that, at least in this one instance, the guy’s worry that his daughter would turn away from a world she then loved was unfounded. She didn’t. She made it her life.
Good for her.
*The exception: Judy Blunt’s memoir Breaking Clean, which while not nature writing per se, stayed with me more than Wallace Stegner or Ivan Doig or Barry Lopez or William Least Heat-Moon, maybe because the dissonance between the landscape she thought she would be allowed to be passionate about as a woman of the west versus the limited definition of who that culture allowed her to be was so starkly pronounced.